D-0
Here we (well, actually i) go o/
hardest decision
now i know exactly what people ment by saying that the hardest decision is to decide if to leave or not.
i made that easily; to leave of course. see the world, find some own time, do what interests me most….
but every now and then i start to wonder.
this might the be the worst decision of my life.
but as well might be the best.
i don’t know unless i try, i keep telling myself.
right now i feel terrified about going. all the questions in my mind and all the stuff i need to arrange during this full-scheduled week. tomorrow i’ll probably be all excited again.
if these feelings would have interrupted me while making “the big decision” i would probably have decided against leaving.
i’m happy that i’m leaving though.
whatever. feelings come and go. this is life. and i’m trying to live it ♡
i loved it at the cottage. i would have loved to stay there the rest of my life. …or at least a little longer. :_)
great people, great weather, great stuff to do, great food, great time ♡
hated to leave that place. especially now that i know it’s gonna be a while until i can go there again :((
D-11
i can’t sleep properly and when i do get some sleep, i keep dreaming of all the bad things that might happen to me during my trip, like being robbed or late from my flight or meeting only stupid people.
what?
i seem to be pretty stressed and nervous about my trip, at least unconsciously :OOO
Adam Lambert’s concert yesterday was one of the best if not even THE BEST concerts I’ve been to. He performed all my favorite songs so I’m extra happy!!!!!!!!
He’s amazing. Everything was perfect!
Next time he comes here I definitely want to go again!
absolutely loved every piece of the show! a huge thank you for Adam Lambert! He’s so wonderful and lovely and awesome that i never would have believed until know <3333 i hope he’s having a good time in Finland with his love <3
D-20
[x] flight
[x] informing at work
[x] travel incurance
[ ] visas
[x] day bag
[x] backpack (finally!!)
[x] mosquito net + other necessary travel things
[x] hammock
[ ] all the meds
[x] travel books
[x] music in my ipod
[ ] packing
this starts to look like i’m really leaving \o/
ps. i MAY be able to go see a k-musical ‘Summer Snow’ in Japan ^__^
teatime
sometimes i get a bit worried about how much Asian culture has affected in me. it’s nothing too serious or big really. but just tiny little things which are actually normal in western culture but are looked bad at in Asia….
like wearing a top instead of t-shirt and showing your shoulders. no one would really care if i wore a top but i just have started to feel kind of ashamed. and i have started to look bad at people who does it, even though i’m telling myself it’s really nothing.
also this age thing is getting on me. as long as i don’t know people’s age, i’m fine with them. but after asking, i start to think what is his/her position in relation to me and how i should act towards him/her. especially if turns out he/she’s older than i am. of course if i can clearly see someone’s older than i am, i automatically think him/her higher than me…
same is with “loosing your face”. at work when people get pissed off they just rant about it loud and tell the person who’s pissing them off to go to hell or something alike. they just loose their temper and i’m watching like, how do they really do that? if i get pissed off i just keep it inside me or tell my friends, but i never tell straight to the person that “fuck you, i can’t stand you right now”, even though i’d want to. it’s just a huge no-no for me. my thoughts are pretty much like “keep calm expression and no one looses their face”.
like what the fuck actually has that to do with Finnish or other western cultures. everybody does what they want and talk whoever they want to however they want to.
i wish i could be a bit more free about things that doesn’t really matter in my culture and not think so much.
…but i guess these are also a part of good manners that are appreciated in Asia as well as in other parts of world. :)
read read read ~~
D-48
less than 7 weeks until i leave.
i’m so excited and can’t really wait!
i’ve been reading travel books for a long time already and i’m sure i have never studied for any exams as much as i’m studying for this trip. :”“D
today i also printed at work a few visa application forms to fill in and apply for visas
i’ve taken photos for visas and for my ID card (which i decided to get on top of my passport for my trip in case my passport will be stolen or lost or something to make it easier to get a new one)
i have also taken the vaccinations i may need in destinations i’ll travel around and bought the antimalarias
every time i do some preparations for this i get even more excited.
not long and i’ll be travelling and seeing the world! ^^
